And i realize, the shame is on me

It’s hard when all this time, the person you cared for thinks that you are the problem. That you only had the issue in your mind. That you are just over thinking.

Something About the Rain

It was really nice going back to school. Today i saw my old friends (and crushes hihi) and it was amazing. The stories are never ending! The afternoon heat together with the four-hour brownout did not stop me from having a good time. And now, it is raining. Can this day get any better? 

Ahhhhh. I love cold, rainy nights soooooo much. This weather is really perfect for cuddling, and my pillows are forever ready. At the same time, the rain gave me a chance to think things through. And i realized that i’ve been selfish. ANd its the reason why i find it hard to accept things; i find it hard to be happy for people, even for the ones i love. So i decided i’ll try to lessen the selfishness, and i will try to let things be somehow. I don’t know, i’ve never been sure of anything.

My “hairspiration”

Seeing tons of wonderful photos of girls with dip-dyed hair makes me want to try it. I have a long black hair, and i’ve been considering this for a long time now. Howver, the thought of bleaching my hair (my cousin told me that i should bleach my hair first so the color would really pop-out) and coloring it makes me scared. What if it goes wrong and i will end up looking like a witch? I know hair bleaching and coloring really damages the hair, but im also thinking of cutting my hair short if doesn’t turn out well. I have no concrete plans on when and how will i get my hair dyed, but here are some photos of my “hairspiration”, a term i coined myself to describe my dream hair. hihi :) i really want a pink/purplish hair sooo bad

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Not an ordinary summer class

Im writing this because there is a very low probability that my classmates will read this (uuuuy stat term, lol)… and because i am a very sentimental person, di lang halata. lol 

FACT: I don’t usually talk to my classmates esp if i haven’t met them before. I’m not really the friendly and approachable type. That’s why almost all of my previous classmates think im snob (ask them haha). But this summer changed everything (omg ang taray, lol).

I TOTALLY LOVED MY STAT 1 SUMMER CLASS! I thought i’ll spend my summer regretting the time i should be spending swimming and hanging out with my friends. ANd on top of that, it was a 7am class. Buti as the summer class goes by, i realized that i look forward to every tuesday, thursday and saturday of the week because im excited to see my classmates; im excited to hear their corny jokes and knock-knocks and pick-up lines hihi. kamote ka ba? lol!

So i really did my best to have a really nice “kiddie party” at the end of classes. I bought party hats pa! Hehehe hashtag genius lol!  It was soooo much fun, we had pizza, i cooked fries, sir enzo brought ice cream (good thing wafer cones yung available and not the sugar cones cause i those).

However, i got really disappointed during the quiz where we had the messages and impression stuffs… my answers are horrible! I never really got better at that :( So when we are asked to describe our instructor, i just wrote “funny”… that’s it i mean wth! I needed to redeem myself that’s why im making this blogpost, just for self-fulfillment (chaaar).

I mean, he’s a really good teacher; i think he’s super smart with all the stat stuffs (but he looks very young and i think he is actually not so old) and he jokes around, which made everything seem easier. And he knows our names! Plus he looks clean and he smells clean (dont judge, its my hobby smelling people. lol). And his handwriting is nice too. Plus he’s really a good teacher i swear (paulit ulit na ko, i know)! He’s actually my favorite teacher under the computation class category hehehe.

That’s why our class did very well during our exams! I was really proud of our section :))) He gave us chocolates as positive reinforcement (the best of their kind lol)!

 I think this is getting longer than i expected so im stopping na with these pics taken after our uber hard prefinal exam! I’ll add more kapag nag-upload na sila ng pics hihi. Good night, folks!

Sometimes its for the best

My Uncle just passed away. He used to work overseas so we never really had the chance to be close. Its been almost two years since he got sick, and it really turned his life upside down. I see how his family, how his wife is really trying to survive. My Aunt has been really so strong, and i admire her for that. But now, he is resting in peace. It may hurt, but i think its for the best. I hope he is doing well up there in heavens :)

Losing someone doesn’t mean that they will be gone in our hearts and mind. This just means that they are moving on to another place, a more beautiful one; where no one will feel hurt and sad. And the day will come that we will also move on, but they will forever remain in us. Goodnight.